Life Goal

How do i do to find out my life goal. i seem tracing someone else's life all the time and feel emotions from people's feedback or none feedback. That makes me feel frustrated often. I wanna be independent in my mind. How to save myself at a easy and happy position.


Always believe that i will be having the best thing. 

緩解

Changes

My life has had some changes since a month ago. I spend lots of time on my pc and care about messages from some people who i don't really know in my real life. Went to a movie of "Girl we had chased for those days", and i am impressed in the director's enthusiasm and passionate on what he lives. Also, i addicted to read "online story" as accidentally had a glare at one popular Taiwan online story writer named "Yuwo". And, now i am reading 1/2 prince every day and night. Those things couldn't just happened for no reason. I should seriously to think about my interests but not just make for living. The point is, what thing would always keep my attention and i would spend time on it. ??

I met friends for dinner this evening. Had a beer and one smoke. Feel quite relax and pleasant to see friends who i haven't seen for few months.

1/2 Prince

Reading 1/2 Prince written by Yuwo, a 100% Taiwan girl. That is a story posted online and that is also a thing i feel uncomfortable to read online. I would prefer to read "book" instead of "online". I would get red eyes while reading on computer for more than an hour.
Sometimes thinking to be a story writer, but have no idea how to create a story.

Peace

A peaceful day with heavy raining in the afternoon. Happy with the heavy rain as it was washing my car which i have leave it in dust for quite a while. 
I have learned something today in the meeting. He is absolutely right on most of what he says and i hope he did do self-examination like he said. The point is he actually talking something that i was thinking. It is kinda finding sort of answer from it.


Drawing is pretty fun. Found people or things in detail by observing carefully for drawing.

Roles in life

Everyone wants to be a leading role in their real life. Who wants to be a co-star? We actually play for 2 roles at least in our life. Your fans decide you are a leading role or a co-star. How to get more fans to follow you?


Since when i am addicted to computer after work? Because i am trying to be a leading role at somewhere else which is completely different my real life. Sometimes i doubt what i am looking for from this virtual world and wondering which part is connecting to the real me.

Rational or Emotional

Dear Jitt, the 144-tweet is never enough to express my words. I also doubt that you would have time to read it carefully. Probably just pass it and jump to read others which is written in your language. Mother language would be always touch heart and expressing personal feeling completely.

It was a long day for me today. I decide to pick up again my painting brush. I am gonna draw something about you. You would be the main role in the story and i'm the one to decide the topic. I will refer to your images posted on twitter and put them into the drawing. Hopefully, i would make it as a drawing story so that you could view the drawings and also have the story in mind. I have to make sure that you would understand the story in the drawing without a word. I'll try it and you will see.

btw, i am trying and learning to sing the song you guys sing for the film. (สบตา)

Coziness & Adventure

It is too bad that i couldn't listen to you on air every night. My network is in low speed at home. You must be so loving ur job of DJ, even you don't feel well today and your face shows that you are sick person obviously. 


I am looking for myself every day, especially having connecting with you via msg. (well, so far, only i'm giving you msg. without reply from you personally.) Lately, i watched a DVD of "the social network" and i love the story as well. The film also arose my ambitiousness to find out my favorite thing to do. However, i feel that i am stuck with the current situation that i am not brave enough to jump out the cozy circle. What will take me out of the cozy circle and bring into adventures.

Family

i feel sleepy early tonight when my family go to bed at early hour. i am so influenced by the surroundings. 


The google's front page is awesome today. Today is Freddie Mercury's birthday (the singer from the Queen). if you click on the Google's doodle, you would see a short MV start playing. That's quite cool.

Stages

I think i love the power of standing on a stage. Once step on a stage, the whole audiences are focus on you and  waiting for your "performance" with some kinda expectation. I am not good on giving speech in front of people, but i am so loving to try it if i have any chance.

Emotions

Temporary put my sensitiveness away and pretend i am not that kind of person. However, the emotions come up sometimes. Still learning how to release those depressed emotions out of  my body. Coz those emotions are killing me.

None

Raining day...

i am not sure what i am doing lately. Trying hard to draw your attention, but unsuccessful. Those messages i sent as throwing stone into a pound without anything return... I even type in Japanese words to get your attention. I feel i am so childish at this moment.

Sick itching

My neck seems get something allergic. Crazily itching. Thought to go for a doctor this evening, but i feel much better today. Then, lazy to see a doctor. Probably the cool weather calms the itching. And if i take shower with cool water, i feel better than shower in warm water.

i found 2 interesting painting in the movie Y/N. I sketch it on a memo before i forget.

Typhoon Party

Before attending to a SGI meeting this evening, i went for Nan-tou noodles as my dinner. i found that i forgot to have my money with me when i finish the dish. That was so embarrassing and i made big promise to the boss that i will definitely come back with money. They smiled at me and said no problem; they are so kind. i, of course, go home and come back with the money in a very short time.

There is a board in front of a pub, which located next to the noodle restaurant. i glanced at it and found something interesting while eating. The board says "Typhoon Part 2 Days" ^^ The typhoon is actually not so much affect my city tho. We all have to work today...

Typhoon

There is a typhoon come visiting Taiwan this weekend and will bring tons of rains for the following days.

Went for a SGI meeting this morning and watched 2 films at home. Enjoyed and satisfied with the relaxing time. Will i have a sweet dream tonight?

Go swimming

i went to a pool for swimming this afternoon. It is always feeling good to do some excise. I love the pool near my house. it makes me feel like on a vacation, tall trees and friendly sidewalk, fresh breath and quite relax.

Aom & Jittaleela will be coming over Taiwan again on 3rd of Sept. That is quite exciting for Taiwan fans as they just visited Taiwan 2 weeks ago. Probably Taiwan people (including the fans) present their enthusiasm in a different but good way. So, they are willing to visit Taiwan again in a short time. Or, like they joked, they are coming here for money. ^^

Boring life

My work is boring, my life is damn not interesting. Currently, the best part of my life would the SGI activities. It sounds a little bit sad, but i at least could get something for my soul from the SGI.

I found friends are having their soul-mate one after another. Yet, i am still finding no one. An ex-coworker invite me to attend her wedding in October. When i reply to her that i will be there alone, she is feeling anxious for me without any speech. The more couples in front of me, the more lonely feeling i would get. That upsets me very much and couldn't even cheer myself up by singing songs. Even feel nothing at all, when a car hit my back as i was waiting for the signal light. Tragic me, begging someone to help but get no feedback at all. Sadly day.

Hair Cut

Went to a hair cut yesterday. A brand new style, super short. i am not able to accept it after coming home. However, the 1st word i got from the breakfast shop is good compliment. i was so glad with it. Maybe i was too happy, so forgot to grab my breakfast with me after paying the money.

Sill, some people are not used to my short hair and only comment me "you look like a boy"...kinda sad for that sentence. i, myself, feel this hair style is quite fashion tho. ^^

Make my day

You have made me a good day and you might not noticed it. My feeling is so light, even if my body weight is exceeded standard. ^^ As a light emotion, i made happiness phone calls to few friends and invite them to attend a meaningful meeting.

My thought has been changed by some people who i don't know them in my real life. Trying to be a friend of them via presenting my modest and courtesy. Hope we could share life and stories to each other from time to time.

Study hard

"Studying=Student+dying" someone posted on twitter. Funny and true.
i have never studied thai language so hard as these days. All have to blame was that i click on the film of "yes or no". After viewing the movie, twice, i have been searching for any video and connection about them. These 2 young man distribute fresh and youthful atmosphere. Quite love that feeling.

Love & Happiness

"If love is easy to get, then everyone found their happiness already." --- this is one of the classical words from movie "yes or no". That is so true and i am one of those been finding happiness. I thought that would be somewhere far away from my mother town. So, i fly to the US and thought that i would find someone. Indeed, i found someone, actually two, and both of them left me. i have no regret and wish tons of happiness for them.